....

they dont know how much they mean to me..

a part of my heart will always be here forever..with all the memories we made, the laughter we shared..

it’s hard to go but then we always have to..saying goodbye is never easy, even though the past years had been hard and i was itching all the time to leave. I realize that when the moment comes face to face with you, it would still be filled with sadness..

everybody’s leaving, there’s just no point in staying anymore..to be left behind hurts more i guess.. and memories would just become dreams..were destined to fall apart.

honestly, i feel like crying.. and even though i despise my existence here, i know in my heart that this is the place where i learned how to grow up..

i would miss my friends..all the people who had become part of my everyday life and even the ones i despise..

i can’t believe the time had finally come..

i had always known that i can’t stay here for long.. 

i won’t stay young forever, i won’t allow myself to be stucked down here too long..

this life..i promised to live to the fullest, would go far beyond borders..

i’ll miss everyone. my classmates, my friends, my family..

but i definitely have to go..

we should all move on.

and start again.

this is the cycle of life..

till’ we meet again..

sometimes it’s hard to explain how tired i feel..

i can’t barely breathe and my lungs feel so tight..

even if i inhale deeply, the air i get don’t make me feel better..

they say it’s caffeine but really i’m so goddamn weary..

weary in all it’s sense.

tired like hell.

im really going..

nah..i feel sick.

soon after you laughed with such a loud voice

i copied you and laughed with you

let’s have a race down the path we walked

with our hands clasped together

as long as i’m with you

any world we’re in will surely shine brightly

i’m next to you, who’s just like that

if you embrace each of your

small bits of happiness one by one

they’ll all change into smiles

we traversed the path on a bicycle

as if we we’re crossing over a rainbow

let’s stay like this forever

filled with colors of happiness

tomorrow..i’d be gone..i always wanted to get away from this place juz that now.. i feel sad because i won’t be able to read gakuen alice there..

i wish i’d get over with these feelings, it’s really hard when you get yourself involved with too much stupidity..i hope i could make my own manga and evoke these kind of feelings to other people..i wish, i won’t grow old..

lol:)

i wish i’d find my natsume..though i’m not really hoping..i pray my life would be ok..i wish i could live like those characters in the manga..

i pray, i’d have a colorful life..

juz finished reading alice academy manga.. .i’m feeling bad, i wish the whole anime was true like..really happening..hahaha..

well, i know am crazy but sometimes it’s so hard to separate reality and dreams..

i wish i could find my natsume,. it’s not like im a hopeless romantic, juz that..im in love with his character..

i’m leaving again tomorrow and maybe it would be sad because i’d be alone there..

i love alice academy. The anime reminds me of arianne too much.. those childish days when i got nothing to do but be childish..

i wish time could be rewinded.. 

i wish life could be like a manga, or an anime..or a dream..with lots of colors…

…….this is really a wishful thinking..

i pray i could be more realistic..

hell, i hate this feeling..

can’t belive that i’m going tomorrow..

i feel like suffocating,like i don’t want to go,like i’m so scared…

God help me,it’s like im havin’ this depression again and my tummy’s juz beginning to churn..

i hate this feeling, i juz can’t do this..

i’m feelin so anxious..

i dunno what’s wrong with me..i have this awful personality disorder im so scared with responsibilities and attachments„

God am i crazy?

i hate unfamiliar things.

like hell.